man-o-gram

today was a pretty weird day. it was one of those days where you get a tiny glimpse of what its like to be a women. like when you watch a scene in a movie where someone is giving birth and you go, "wow, i am so glad i am not a women" or "sucks for her, that must really hurt!". or like when you learn a little bit about what goes on when a girl gets a period but then regret ever even asking about it. well today i can say that i am a changed man. i say that because i got my very first (and hopefully LAST) mamogram and ultrasound!

if i haven't told you to about the lump under my nipple yet, then i will tell you now.. i have a lump under my nipple. it is about a cm in diameter and i can feel it on my left side. my doctor thinks its a cyst, but to be sure, i had to get a mamogram. it was a really weird process. it involved squeezing my boobs between two plastic boards and clamping down really hard. i had to do that in like 8 different positions and it was one of the most awkward times of my life. i said a total of three words during the whole process.."is that all?".

the ultrasound wasnt so bad. i just got this clear gel on my left side and then the person would use this thing and press on my chest to look at the me. i would look at the screen trying to find my nipple, but i was never quite sure what i was looking at. it all made me think, "wow if im that eager to find my nipple, just imagine the excitement i would get seeing my SON or DAUGHTER on this screen of black and white chaos." now that would be life changing.

i still dont know the results yet..i just pray that it is nothing serious. thanks to all of you who know and are praying for me!