LOVE

i really like talking about relationships for some reason. past couple days, i realized just how much i liked talking about relationships when i tried to make it the topic of our spontaneous late-night discussion. relationships just seem to be the default conversation, but i am starting to see how it negatively affects me.

we recently did a bible study in epic on ruth. the bible study demonstrated how God's love is so much greater than any love we can experience on earth. although we always hear about it, something about felt so strange. i studied it, i led it, and i found that i still couldnt find the ability to fully grasp it (not that i could ever "fully" grasp it). its just so abstract and out there. sometimes i act like i would be able to understand it after i meet someone who loves me in a romantic sense. but i know that isnt true. it would probably just be a hindrance in my walk and only cloud my vision of the only true love in my life.

despite what i know, i still find myself urging to pursue an earthly love. its not something i actively do, but like i realized in the past couple days, its something that comes natural to me. i like chick flicks, i like talking about relationships, and i like taylor swift (too much taylor swift is just damaging to the male's mind, anyones mind actually). i think ive gotten so used to finding entertainment in those aspects that it has watered down my view of love. that is probably why i find it so hard to truly appreciate the Love that i already have.

just by writing this note, i already find myself embracing what i have and relearning to appreciate it. hopefully this is something that continues to grow and doesnt fade after a short period.